As shallow and fucked up as this might seem, I'm actually terribly excited for the first time that I'm fucking UP! Does that make sense? He is out of my league...and I get to make him cum! Why does that feel so exciting? I mean, a guy will come if he pumps enough. It's probably not me...but I still like the thought that I could be that exciting in bed! :D

I think he likes it that I'm shy and wanton at the same time. I'm a teensy bit cheesed off that he wants me to be demure (Sigh! Indian guys, I tell you!). Shouldn't I get to decide how I feel? But oh well....this is the first TOTAL stranger I'm fucking...met him ONLY for sex. I'm just surprised it doesn't feel as weird or awkward as I thought it would be. And for now, it's exciting that I'm the aggressor...at least on whatsapp.

The worry, however, is that I'm mighty curious about him as a person...and that won't do. This is supposed to be a strictly sex-only thing. I keep reminding myself that he's an asshole...but...oh what the hell!...he isn't THAT much of an asshole. Just an average guy...who is easy on the eyes. Cute-ass TUSH! :D :D And long long legs....naaaice!

And turns out, I'm a bit of a racist. I've always known I liked South Indian guys....preferred my men on the darker side. This one's fair. Curd rice guy. And he's got hazel eyes. I KNOW that's supposed to be hot...but I'm still ambivalent...can't decide if I'm excited or not about it. Damn...but I LOVE it that he looks into my eyes while kissing. And such sooooooooft lips....yuummm!

But alas...all this...and the orgasm still remains elusive! ~sigh~